never have I ever…
felt soooo exhausted and disconnected from my friends and my family…. Work and other priorities have got me working to my bones. Like I’ve said before I’ve never pushed my self sooo hard in my life. I haven’t admitted this to anyone but I almost felt like giving up last week and just say “fuck it” like I usually do… but then I had a conversation with my Lolo (grandpa) last week and he made me cry cos. he got on the phone just to congratulate me on something I worked so hard at and ended up accomplishing… just hearing 5 simple words come out of his mouth “I’M VERY PROUD OF YOU” rejuvenated me. Not just him but getting the support and hearing that from my fam made me cry after I hung up the phone. I never wanted to be at home sooo much before, My family always gave me tough love… we’re close but it was a never “LOVEY DOVEY”kind of closeness so when I hear simple things like that, it means a hell of a lot to me. I really pray I get to spend time with my parents and my sister in March! People take the close of a distance they have to see their fam for granted when they have it and it’s not until they move far that they realize how much their family’s short distance is important to them… what I would do for my Lola’s cooking right now…or me and my mom’s sisterly arguments and sports talks with my pops and my grandpa’s life advices and of course the fact that I could pick my sister up in 5 mins just to spend the night, go to Walmart at 4 am, ihop, YOURWAY, korean BBQ, the gym… and the list goes on! You guys get the picture I miss my fam.
New Video! It’s been a while..
Thinking About You by Frank Ocean
Don’t mind the mistakes please haha. Enjoyyyyy
makes me miss singing with my sister <3
